I’ve taken my meds for a week now
yesterday I had lunch with my friend and I told her about my first meeting with my therapist. I was consumed with guilt because she has her own struggles and this entire lunch was focused on my emergency plan
the emergency plan I put her name and number on as the one person my therapist could call if she were concerned about me
she asked me if I’m feeling better
I think I am, but I don’t know
is it possible that these are miracle pills and can make me feel better this quickly?
or is the fact that I finally made the decision to tell someone that I am more than just tired enough to relieve me of some of the weight I have been carrying?
I feel horrible for adding just another burden for her to carry
it’s not fair, I know
but she’s the only one who gets me … who gets the me before all of this knocked me out … and she is the one who tells me the stuff I don’t want to hear, but need to.
I love her for that
the child left behind 